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Sunday, July 06, 2008;2:35 AM
caregroup ,leadership and failure......
Today is power house day man.... 3 things i must really say and it is today's title of my post and i think lets start with the first thing caregroup......
1)Caregroup
man man man acs barker is not growing and im disappointed with myself badly man! haiz trying so so hard man but i think its time i must go all out for it and after finish acs barker i want to lead my own caregroup man! i really think i can lead a good and well caregroup which i think that god has a plan for me for doing that.
2)LeaderShip
leadership.... this is the one thing which i prayed that god would give me and its spiritually leadership skills which then i can lead a good and well caregroup and lead even other people if possible because i think i much much better in leading then evaxing and other stuff but i know myself that if i don't evax i wont ever even start a 1% of leading a caregroup myself because today's serman said hardwork is needed before we can have sucess and i think that is so so true without that i think its like planting a seed without watering it because we are not putting and effort into growing the seed at all.. therefore i must really do my really best to really and if i can chiong all out for god and not even missing church at all in my whole 1 year and 7 months in church, therefore if i can be so chiong for GOD but not missing church once before, why cant i chiong for GOD by evaxing more people to come to know him.The Serman also said that everyone of us is capable of working hard but is a choice of whether we want to work hard or not for the kingdom of god. Whenever we work hard there will always be a sacrifice to be made because anything else will come...
3)Failure...
I hate this point but i think this point i would really share all out to everyone because i don't wish anyone who follows my footstep will make this mistake over again like what happen to me last time.. Firstly, i think that im a failure because i think i didnt treasure as much as what i am now because i can honestly say that i realise all the wrong doing like now only and i think that its really stupid when i think back of those things that i did.. one thing which i think i teared quietly at one corner today was during central vision night because firstly i had to think back why did i only realise all these things are so important to me now rather than me realising last time... and the second thing was Daniel specially called out 2 person who are now CLs and they were Renting and Alvern. It was really a time which i think maybe if i didnt do all those things then i would be a CL but i guess what i did was all too late already so then Daniel continue by saying that now their only 15 and their working so hard for god and now they are a CLs and they have still a long way more to go to help the kingdom of God.Then that was the time when i went one corner and close my eyes and talk to god and really felt very very sorry to god saying that im a failure and i really really want to apologise not only to him but maybe my ex shepherd Zach and my current shepherd Ricwan who put in so so much effort in me to really built me up but i really really failed them and that made me teared because im 17 and im one of the oldest person in my caregroup besides Ricwan,Zach and Sinyee and how many of them who are younger then me are more capable then me and now like Desmond,Alvern,JingWen,Phoebe,Renting,Keith and Jeremiah, they are all younger then me but so much spiritually and capable then me.What more can i think of myself? just a shepherd of 1 sheep and 1 grand sheep? I guess im really not doing my job as a shepherd also because i think if my sheep KwanShyan was with any of those names above he would be like a sheep of 2? 3? or even more? but i really failed to grow him as much as other people growed their sheeps. Although i know im a failure but i know that god has choosen me to do something for him and today's song was you chose me and i think that song really tells me that no matter what happens what really matters to me is God has chosen me to be his son to help in the kingdom of god.
This song i think i want everyone to know is : From inside out!
Thousand times I've failed
Still Your mercy remains
And should I stumble again
I'm caught in Your grace
Everlasting
Your light will shine when all else fades
Never ending
Your glory goes beyond all fame
Your will above all else
My purpose remains
The art of losing myself
In bringing You praise
Everlasting
Your light will shine when all else fades
Never ending
Your glory goes beyond all fame
In my heart and my soul
Lord I give You control
Consume me from the inside out
Lord let justice and praise
Become my embrace
To love You from the inside out
Everlasting
Your light will shine when all else fades
Never ending
Your glory goes beyond all fame
And the cry of my heart
Is to bring You praise
From the inside out
Lord my soul cries out
Everlasting
Your light will shine when all else fades
Never ending
Your glory goes beyond all fame
And the cry of my heart
Is to bring You praise
From the inside out
Lord my soul cries out
From the inside out
Lord, my soul cries out, Lord
Today is power house day man.... 3 things i must really say and it is today's title of my post and i think lets start with the first thing caregroup......
1)Caregroup
man man man acs barker is not growing and im disappointed with myself badly man! haiz trying so so hard man but i think its time i must go all out for it and after finish acs barker i want to lead my own caregroup man! i really think i can lead a good and well caregroup which i think that god has a plan for me for doing that.
2)LeaderShip
leadership.... this is the one thing which i prayed that god would give me and its spiritually leadership skills which then i can lead a good and well caregroup and lead even other people if possible because i think i much much better in leading then evaxing and other stuff but i know myself that if i don't evax i wont ever even start a 1% of leading a caregroup myself because today's serman said hardwork is needed before we can have sucess and i think that is so so true without that i think its like planting a seed without watering it because we are not putting and effort into growing the seed at all.. therefore i must really do my really best to really and if i can chiong all out for god and not even missing church at all in my whole 1 year and 7 months in church, therefore if i can be so chiong for GOD but not missing church once before, why cant i chiong for GOD by evaxing more people to come to know him.The Serman also said that everyone of us is capable of working hard but is a choice of whether we want to work hard or not for the kingdom of god. Whenever we work hard there will always be a sacrifice to be made because anything else will come...
3)Failure...
I hate this point but i think this point i would really share all out to everyone because i don't wish anyone who follows my footstep will make this mistake over again like what happen to me last time.. Firstly, i think that im a failure because i think i didnt treasure as much as what i am now because i can honestly say that i realise all the wrong doing like now only and i think that its really stupid when i think back of those things that i did.. one thing which i think i teared quietly at one corner today was during central vision night because firstly i had to think back why did i only realise all these things are so important to me now rather than me realising last time... and the second thing was Daniel specially called out 2 person who are now CLs and they were Renting and Alvern. It was really a time which i think maybe if i didnt do all those things then i would be a CL but i guess what i did was all too late already so then Daniel continue by saying that now their only 15 and their working so hard for god and now they are a CLs and they have still a long way more to go to help the kingdom of God.Then that was the time when i went one corner and close my eyes and talk to god and really felt very very sorry to god saying that im a failure and i really really want to apologise not only to him but maybe my ex shepherd Zach and my current shepherd Ricwan who put in so so much effort in me to really built me up but i really really failed them and that made me teared because im 17 and im one of the oldest person in my caregroup besides Ricwan,Zach and Sinyee and how many of them who are younger then me are more capable then me and now like Desmond,Alvern,JingWen,Phoebe,Renting,Keith and Jeremiah, they are all younger then me but so much spiritually and capable then me.What more can i think of myself? just a shepherd of 1 sheep and 1 grand sheep? I guess im really not doing my job as a shepherd also because i think if my sheep KwanShyan was with any of those names above he would be like a sheep of 2? 3? or even more? but i really failed to grow him as much as other people growed their sheeps. Although i know im a failure but i know that god has choosen me to do something for him and today's song was you chose me and i think that song really tells me that no matter what happens what really matters to me is God has chosen me to be his son to help in the kingdom of god.
This song i think i want everyone to know is : From inside out!
Thousand times I've failed
Still Your mercy remains
And should I stumble again
I'm caught in Your grace
Everlasting
Your light will shine when all else fades
Never ending
Your glory goes beyond all fame
Your will above all else
My purpose remains
The art of losing myself
In bringing You praise
Everlasting
Your light will shine when all else fades
Never ending
Your glory goes beyond all fame
In my heart and my soul
Lord I give You control
Consume me from the inside out
Lord let justice and praise
Become my embrace
To love You from the inside out
Everlasting
Your light will shine when all else fades
Never ending
Your glory goes beyond all fame
And the cry of my heart
Is to bring You praise
From the inside out
Lord my soul cries out
Everlasting
Your light will shine when all else fades
Never ending
Your glory goes beyond all fame
And the cry of my heart
Is to bring You praise
From the inside out
Lord my soul cries out
From the inside out
Lord, my soul cries out, Lord
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