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Sunday, July 06, 2008;2:35 AM
caregroup ,leadership and failure......
Today is power house day man.... 3 things i must really say and it is today's title of my post and i think lets start with the first thing caregroup......
1)Caregroup
man man man acs barker is not growing and im disappointed with myself badly man! haiz trying so so hard man but i think its time i must go all out for it and after finish acs barker i want to lead my own caregroup man! i really think i can lead a good and well caregroup which i think that god has a plan for me for doing that.
2)LeaderShip
leadership.... this is the one thing which i prayed that god would give me and its spiritually leadership skills which then i can lead a good and well caregroup and lead even other people if possible because i think i much much better in leading then evaxing and other stuff but i know myself that if i don't evax i wont ever even start a 1% of leading a caregroup myself because today's serman said hardwork is needed before we can have sucess and i think that is so so true without that i think its like planting a seed without watering it because we are not putting and effort into growing the seed at all.. therefore i must really do my really best to really and if i can chiong all out for god and not even missing church at all in my whole 1 year and 7 months in church, therefore if i can be so chiong for GOD but not missing church once before, why cant i chiong for GOD by evaxing more people to come to know him.The Serman also said that everyone of us is capable of working hard but is a choice of whether we want to work hard or not for the kingdom of god. Whenever we work hard there will always be a sacrifice to be made because anything else will come...
3)Failure...
I hate this point but i think this point i would really share all out to everyone because i don't wish anyone who follows my footstep will make this mistake over again like what happen to me last time.. Firstly, i think that im a failure because i think i didnt treasure as much as what i am now because i can honestly say that i realise all the wrong doing like now only and i think that its really stupid when i think back of those things that i did.. one thing which i think i teared quietly at one corner today was during central vision night because firstly i had to think back why did i only realise all these things are so important to me now rather than me realising last time... and the second thing was Daniel specially called out 2 person who are now CLs and they were Renting and Alvern. It was really a time which i think maybe if i didnt do all those things then i would be a CL but i guess what i did was all too late already so then Daniel continue by saying that now their only 15 and their working so hard for god and now they are a CLs and they have still a long way more to go to help the kingdom of God.Then that was the time when i went one corner and close my eyes and talk to god and really felt very very sorry to god saying that im a failure and i really really want to apologise not only to him but maybe my ex shepherd Zach and my current shepherd Ricwan who put in so so much effort in me to really built me up but i really really failed them and that made me teared because im 17 and im one of the oldest person in my caregroup besides Ricwan,Zach and Sinyee and how many of them who are younger then me are more capable then me and now like Desmond,Alvern,JingWen,Phoebe,Renting,Keith and Jeremiah, they are all younger then me but so much spiritually and capable then me.What more can i think of myself? just a shepherd of 1 sheep and 1 grand sheep? I guess im really not doing my job as a shepherd also because i think if my sheep KwanShyan was with any of those names above he would be like a sheep of 2? 3? or even more? but i really failed to grow him as much as other people growed their sheeps. Although i know im a failure but i know that god has choosen me to do something for him and today's song was you chose me and i think that song really tells me that no matter what happens what really matters to me is God has chosen me to be his son to help in the kingdom of god.
This song i think i want everyone to know is : From inside out!
Thousand times I've failed
Still Your mercy remains
And should I stumble again
I'm caught in Your grace
Everlasting
Your light will shine when all else fades
Never ending
Your glory goes beyond all fame
Your will above all else
My purpose remains
The art of losing myself
In bringing You praise
Everlasting
Your light will shine when all else fades
Never ending
Your glory goes beyond all fame
In my heart and my soul
Lord I give You control
Consume me from the inside out
Lord let justice and praise
Become my embrace
To love You from the inside out
Everlasting
Your light will shine when all else fades
Never ending
Your glory goes beyond all fame
And the cry of my heart
Is to bring You praise
From the inside out
Lord my soul cries out
Everlasting
Your light will shine when all else fades
Never ending
Your glory goes beyond all fame
And the cry of my heart
Is to bring You praise
From the inside out
Lord my soul cries out
From the inside out
Lord, my soul cries out, Lord
Today is power house day man.... 3 things i must really say and it is today's title of my post and i think lets start with the first thing caregroup......
1)Caregroup
man man man acs barker is not growing and im disappointed with myself badly man! haiz trying so so hard man but i think its time i must go all out for it and after finish acs barker i want to lead my own caregroup man! i really think i can lead a good and well caregroup which i think that god has a plan for me for doing that.
2)LeaderShip
leadership.... this is the one thing which i prayed that god would give me and its spiritually leadership skills which then i can lead a good and well caregroup and lead even other people if possible because i think i much much better in leading then evaxing and other stuff but i know myself that if i don't evax i wont ever even start a 1% of leading a caregroup myself because today's serman said hardwork is needed before we can have sucess and i think that is so so true without that i think its like planting a seed without watering it because we are not putting and effort into growing the seed at all.. therefore i must really do my really best to really and if i can chiong all out for god and not even missing church at all in my whole 1 year and 7 months in church, therefore if i can be so chiong for GOD but not missing church once before, why cant i chiong for GOD by evaxing more people to come to know him.The Serman also said that everyone of us is capable of working hard but is a choice of whether we want to work hard or not for the kingdom of god. Whenever we work hard there will always be a sacrifice to be made because anything else will come...
3)Failure...
I hate this point but i think this point i would really share all out to everyone because i don't wish anyone who follows my footstep will make this mistake over again like what happen to me last time.. Firstly, i think that im a failure because i think i didnt treasure as much as what i am now because i can honestly say that i realise all the wrong doing like now only and i think that its really stupid when i think back of those things that i did.. one thing which i think i teared quietly at one corner today was during central vision night because firstly i had to think back why did i only realise all these things are so important to me now rather than me realising last time... and the second thing was Daniel specially called out 2 person who are now CLs and they were Renting and Alvern. It was really a time which i think maybe if i didnt do all those things then i would be a CL but i guess what i did was all too late already so then Daniel continue by saying that now their only 15 and their working so hard for god and now they are a CLs and they have still a long way more to go to help the kingdom of God.Then that was the time when i went one corner and close my eyes and talk to god and really felt very very sorry to god saying that im a failure and i really really want to apologise not only to him but maybe my ex shepherd Zach and my current shepherd Ricwan who put in so so much effort in me to really built me up but i really really failed them and that made me teared because im 17 and im one of the oldest person in my caregroup besides Ricwan,Zach and Sinyee and how many of them who are younger then me are more capable then me and now like Desmond,Alvern,JingWen,Phoebe,Renting,Keith and Jeremiah, they are all younger then me but so much spiritually and capable then me.What more can i think of myself? just a shepherd of 1 sheep and 1 grand sheep? I guess im really not doing my job as a shepherd also because i think if my sheep KwanShyan was with any of those names above he would be like a sheep of 2? 3? or even more? but i really failed to grow him as much as other people growed their sheeps. Although i know im a failure but i know that god has choosen me to do something for him and today's song was you chose me and i think that song really tells me that no matter what happens what really matters to me is God has chosen me to be his son to help in the kingdom of god.
This song i think i want everyone to know is : From inside out!
Thousand times I've failed
Still Your mercy remains
And should I stumble again
I'm caught in Your grace
Everlasting
Your light will shine when all else fades
Never ending
Your glory goes beyond all fame
Your will above all else
My purpose remains
The art of losing myself
In bringing You praise
Everlasting
Your light will shine when all else fades
Never ending
Your glory goes beyond all fame
In my heart and my soul
Lord I give You control
Consume me from the inside out
Lord let justice and praise
Become my embrace
To love You from the inside out
Everlasting
Your light will shine when all else fades
Never ending
Your glory goes beyond all fame
And the cry of my heart
Is to bring You praise
From the inside out
Lord my soul cries out
Everlasting
Your light will shine when all else fades
Never ending
Your glory goes beyond all fame
And the cry of my heart
Is to bring You praise
From the inside out
Lord my soul cries out
From the inside out
Lord, my soul cries out, Lord
SIGN off,
Monday, June 30, 2008;11:08 PM
Spain Spain Spain!
Oh man its been so long since i have blogged because i was so busy studying like mad my o level chinese oral is like next next week already! ahhhh so fast man!! so i must keep working hard and get into the JC which i want to go in. Anyway so happy that Spain won this morning, i went Lido's Macdonalds to watch the Euro Finals with Shirley,Dewen and Zach so honoured watching with them and it was so exciting man! we met around 12mid-night as that was the last bus and then when i got there we decided to play Spades and i partner with Zach and Shirley partner with Dewen. It was so fun that we laugh like mad and we talk alot of craps haha! We played till the match started at 2.35am and then it was so funny because now i know Dewen was so fun to watch with haha! he keep cursing Germany to Eat grass and curse alot germany players like the GoalKeeper and Ballack haha! He Kept Cursing them like "Eat More Grass" and "Ballack hope u injured your both eye and break ur ribs haha!!!!" so funny that i kept laughing then we watch and he keep cursing and cursing and shirley was like go Spain and suddenly we realise that Shirley was the only girl there for the moment till another 3 girls at the other side appeared haha! but it was a very enjoying time for me that i could watch with such cool people like Shirley, Dewen and Zach! next time World Cup im sure im going to watch with them and laugh my head off again! ahaha! SPAIN ALL THE WAY!
Oh man its been so long since i have blogged because i was so busy studying like mad my o level chinese oral is like next next week already! ahhhh so fast man!! so i must keep working hard and get into the JC which i want to go in. Anyway so happy that Spain won this morning, i went Lido's Macdonalds to watch the Euro Finals with Shirley,Dewen and Zach so honoured watching with them and it was so exciting man! we met around 12mid-night as that was the last bus and then when i got there we decided to play Spades and i partner with Zach and Shirley partner with Dewen. It was so fun that we laugh like mad and we talk alot of craps haha! We played till the match started at 2.35am and then it was so funny because now i know Dewen was so fun to watch with haha! he keep cursing Germany to Eat grass and curse alot germany players like the GoalKeeper and Ballack haha! He Kept Cursing them like "Eat More Grass" and "Ballack hope u injured your both eye and break ur ribs haha!!!!" so funny that i kept laughing then we watch and he keep cursing and cursing and shirley was like go Spain and suddenly we realise that Shirley was the only girl there for the moment till another 3 girls at the other side appeared haha! but it was a very enjoying time for me that i could watch with such cool people like Shirley, Dewen and Zach! next time World Cup im sure im going to watch with them and laugh my head off again! ahaha! SPAIN ALL THE WAY!
SIGN off,
Sunday, May 18, 2008;1:09 AM
What can i do.....?
Today was another week of growing and applying new things in my life and i learnt alot alot of things today by god and by pastor jeff. God talked to me today during worship about setting my goal in impacting lives not only people whom i know but everyone that he has created in this world. I not only want to impact lives with god has created but start saving souls which are yet to be saved. therefore, Vicente is here! :) see my topic for today? its what can i do? today's worship song was this title and while i was worshipping and singing this song i thought in my mind asking god what can i do to impact people's lives and what can i do to save people's life? I also kept asking myself instead of what can i changed and ask myself what must i do to save people's lives and impact people's lives. I told myself that god can do everything because he is god but he will not help me totally because he wants me to try it myself and do it myself to make him proud. I hope from today onwards im going to ask god for more and more words so that i can really grow myself and grow my sheep and if sheepsssssss even better wahhaa! but everything starts small so im going start by impacting 1 to 2 to 3 to 4 to 5 to 6 to 7 to CAREGROUP! not cell group in jail haha! WHAT CAN WE DO TO PRAISE GOD?!!!
Today was another week of growing and applying new things in my life and i learnt alot alot of things today by god and by pastor jeff. God talked to me today during worship about setting my goal in impacting lives not only people whom i know but everyone that he has created in this world. I not only want to impact lives with god has created but start saving souls which are yet to be saved. therefore, Vicente is here! :) see my topic for today? its what can i do? today's worship song was this title and while i was worshipping and singing this song i thought in my mind asking god what can i do to impact people's lives and what can i do to save people's life? I also kept asking myself instead of what can i changed and ask myself what must i do to save people's lives and impact people's lives. I told myself that god can do everything because he is god but he will not help me totally because he wants me to try it myself and do it myself to make him proud. I hope from today onwards im going to ask god for more and more words so that i can really grow myself and grow my sheep and if sheepsssssss even better wahhaa! but everything starts small so im going start by impacting 1 to 2 to 3 to 4 to 5 to 6 to 7 to CAREGROUP! not cell group in jail haha! WHAT CAN WE DO TO PRAISE GOD?!!!
SIGN off,
Monday, May 05, 2008;10:13 PM
long time....
woah woah its been super long since i blog too busy man.... Anyway got many things to talk about i guess but yeah mid years is coming so is O level chinese omggggggg so near la.... My mid years starts on 20 May, Ends on 30 May and in between there is 2 special things are one of them is 26May O LEVEL CHINESE AHHHHH! So scare la..... Another 1 is 27 MAY one day after guess what day is that? MY BIRTHDAY!!! HAHAHA so suay but its okie this is once in my whole life and this is for my future so yeah i hope i can get good results and go to JC pray and pray and wish and wish i really hope that i can get in JC... Now im just scare of 2 subjects and they are Chemistry and Principals of Accounts!!! ahhh i scare i cannot do well for o levels in those 2 subjects!!! If anyone is good in these 2 subjects please tell me asap i really need help in these 2 thanks! HAVE FAITH BECAUSE GOD IS WITH ME!!! AMEN!!!
woah woah its been super long since i blog too busy man.... Anyway got many things to talk about i guess but yeah mid years is coming so is O level chinese omggggggg so near la.... My mid years starts on 20 May, Ends on 30 May and in between there is 2 special things are one of them is 26May O LEVEL CHINESE AHHHHH! So scare la..... Another 1 is 27 MAY one day after guess what day is that? MY BIRTHDAY!!! HAHAHA so suay but its okie this is once in my whole life and this is for my future so yeah i hope i can get good results and go to JC pray and pray and wish and wish i really hope that i can get in JC... Now im just scare of 2 subjects and they are Chemistry and Principals of Accounts!!! ahhh i scare i cannot do well for o levels in those 2 subjects!!! If anyone is good in these 2 subjects please tell me asap i really need help in these 2 thanks! HAVE FAITH BECAUSE GOD IS WITH ME!!! AMEN!!!
SIGN off,
Sunday, April 20, 2008;10:42 AM
Injured Injured WIN!
All i have to say is WE WON AND in top 5 in the league now and im injured both side of my leg haha! bye!
All i have to say is WE WON AND in top 5 in the league now and im injured both side of my leg haha! bye!
SIGN off,
Wednesday, April 09, 2008;8:03 PM
Haiz im afraid.......
I have thought of this very very long already and i think i made my mind already.I feel that this year is really really my major year and i think i cannot slack or skip school anymore unless im sick. From tomorrow onwards i going to go to school on time and leave school on time without fail as i think if i continue to skip school i wont be able to make it to JC and my dream and aim is to get into jc so that i could really further my studies and i going to make it! IMPOSSIBLE IS NOTHING! God will guide me through! AMEN!
I have thought of this very very long already and i think i made my mind already.I feel that this year is really really my major year and i think i cannot slack or skip school anymore unless im sick. From tomorrow onwards i going to go to school on time and leave school on time without fail as i think if i continue to skip school i wont be able to make it to JC and my dream and aim is to get into jc so that i could really further my studies and i going to make it! IMPOSSIBLE IS NOTHING! God will guide me through! AMEN!
SIGN off,
Sunday, April 06, 2008;11:00 PM
Happy Rejocing and Shocked!......
Firstly ole! ole! good work team impossible! today suppose to have retreat for central but last minute was canceled as too little people would be able to make it so decided to cancel it.Therefore i went to meet the rest who went already to fellowship with them and after that can go soccer with zach.When i reach there we played some lame game which took up like 1 hour and non stop and there were many laughters and lameness haha! then daniel called for ULM meeting for all those UL and then those who dun have we decided to go 7 eleven to buy cards to go outside pc bunk to play asshole daidee haha! after that at 2 plus zach finish his meeting and we head down to woodlands for our match against Indo team.When we got there it started to rain heavily and zach me and the group of people who were there decided to hold a prayer meet and start praying for the rain to stop so that we can continue with our game,and guess what? the rain really stop! AMEN! haha! surprisingly we had 3 supports today to come to support us and there are Angela,Elise and reynard haha good supports though must thank them for making all the way down to woodlands just to support us.
Then the match started and we got ready to play and then after 5 minutes of the game i had 1 chance but was tackled and i i fell and biak! jersey from green become brown. haha! then after 25 minutes there were still no goal i decided to subsitude myself out and then when me and zach wanted to go buy drink desmond volleyed a ball and scored a goal for TEAM IMPOSSIBLE! GOAL! haha and half time came the score was 1 - 0. and we all rested and change players. 2nd half.... the person who subsitude me called Aaron scored a goal and made the score 2 - 0 and we were like yes! come on jia you! and not long later they attacked 1 goal back and cause 2 - 1.Then i decided to come in and help help a little to defend and attack and guess what? i scored a GOAL! haha 4th goal of this league for me! haha and i was like really happy as i know we just need to defend and we can win this as the Indo team is like top 5 of the league and we are like 8th? haha! so nothing is impossible for us man! at the 80 plus minutes it was really nice and tyco but i took a corner and i bend the ball all the way and a defender miss kick and i scored a goal! hahaha! from the corner flag i scored that goal actually but in the end it was called as an own goal! but its okie in the end the final score was 4 - 1 and we won! whooo!
Im just super shock about something and its not going to reveal here! haha! but seriously i am seriously seriously shock about something which i just found out! omg!!!!!
Firstly ole! ole! good work team impossible! today suppose to have retreat for central but last minute was canceled as too little people would be able to make it so decided to cancel it.Therefore i went to meet the rest who went already to fellowship with them and after that can go soccer with zach.When i reach there we played some lame game which took up like 1 hour and non stop and there were many laughters and lameness haha! then daniel called for ULM meeting for all those UL and then those who dun have we decided to go 7 eleven to buy cards to go outside pc bunk to play asshole daidee haha! after that at 2 plus zach finish his meeting and we head down to woodlands for our match against Indo team.When we got there it started to rain heavily and zach me and the group of people who were there decided to hold a prayer meet and start praying for the rain to stop so that we can continue with our game,and guess what? the rain really stop! AMEN! haha! surprisingly we had 3 supports today to come to support us and there are Angela,Elise and reynard haha good supports though must thank them for making all the way down to woodlands just to support us.
Then the match started and we got ready to play and then after 5 minutes of the game i had 1 chance but was tackled and i i fell and biak! jersey from green become brown. haha! then after 25 minutes there were still no goal i decided to subsitude myself out and then when me and zach wanted to go buy drink desmond volleyed a ball and scored a goal for TEAM IMPOSSIBLE! GOAL! haha and half time came the score was 1 - 0. and we all rested and change players. 2nd half.... the person who subsitude me called Aaron scored a goal and made the score 2 - 0 and we were like yes! come on jia you! and not long later they attacked 1 goal back and cause 2 - 1.Then i decided to come in and help help a little to defend and attack and guess what? i scored a GOAL! haha 4th goal of this league for me! haha and i was like really happy as i know we just need to defend and we can win this as the Indo team is like top 5 of the league and we are like 8th? haha! so nothing is impossible for us man! at the 80 plus minutes it was really nice and tyco but i took a corner and i bend the ball all the way and a defender miss kick and i scored a goal! hahaha! from the corner flag i scored that goal actually but in the end it was called as an own goal! but its okie in the end the final score was 4 - 1 and we won! whooo!
Im just super shock about something and its not going to reveal here! haha! but seriously i am seriously seriously shock about something which i just found out! omg!!!!!
SIGN off,